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23 June 2011, I Can't Do It.

Who have thought that someone who is always so hyper and talkative in class will actually be such a quiet person whenever he is all alone? He, who can never take any sensitive remarks from others, will get affected at the slightest matter. I really can take it no more. The pain that torment me every night, I have not an inkling of where does it comes from. All I know is that it is there and it hurts. I’m not that strong. I’m merely putting on a façade every time I go out- and I get better and better at it till it becomes so natural that nobody can really tell when I’m alright or I’m not. I often do reflections and reviews on my day and on my life. They would usually be very depressing in the beginning, but there will always be a consolation type of ending. Today, I am not going to do that. I’m just follow just with the flow. Initially I have no idea how am I going to start off this review; however, I manage to get it started. This is life- it is always hard to take the first few s

22 June 2011, Giving Up.

It has been a rather long time since I last did a review. Recently, I have been bogged down by so many things. It feels like there is not enough time for me to do anything at all. My days are only filled with studying. There is hardly any time left for trivial matters such as sports. Looking back, it had been so long since I last ran or played badminton. Every now and then, I will receive text messages from my coach, informing me of when and where the trainings will be held. Upon receiving those messages I asked myself why I am pushing myself so much. Why am I treating myself so harshly? Deep inside, I really want to go out there and train with my fellow mates, but I have been tied down. I am tied down by the responsibility- The responsibility of completing my work to the best of my capabilities. There are many times when I really feel like giving it all up. I remember yesterday, I showed my completed product to my subject teacher with pride. I was so sure that I had done a great

Nostalgia and Memories. 16 June 2011

16 June 2011. Nostalgia and Memories. Today, I unexpectedly chanced upon a few of my old photo albums. Inside were many photos of my childhood, taken when I was still very young. While browsing through the album, nostalgia surged through me. I felt a feeling of nostalgia surge through me. I started thinking of my past. I started to think of the people who were in my life. One of whom is my grandmother, who is a prominent figure in my life. My grandmother is probably one of the fiercest looking grandmothers that you can find. With her loud and vibrant voice, she would always be nagging at me incessantly. I found it very irritating sometimes. However, she would have the most caring attitude towards her grandchildren. Ever since I was born into this world, my grandmother would take care of me when my parents were busy with their work. She would always be there for me, feeding me with powdered milk, singing a lullaby for me to sleep to, and taught me how to start speaking. Basically, my gr
It've been so long since I've last posted! Well, It's going to be 'alive again'. I'm going to start posting more often. Stay tune! I just watched a movie titled “Hello Ghost”. It is a Korean movie that has yet to be screened in Singapore, yet I am not really sure why I can find a link to it online. The movie tells the tale of a man who initially wanted to kill himself, but for some reason apparently could not die. After numerous suicidal attempts, he found out that he was able to see ghosts with his naked eye. What’s more disturbing is that, he is also haunted by five restless spirits. A middle-aged businessman who smoke, a lady who cries non-stop, an old man who loves ogling at young ladies and an adorable young boy. Each of them had wishes that they would like to realize, and planned to use the man’s body to act out and fulfill those wishes. The entire plot generally resolves around the fulfilling of these wishes. However, the man later experienced friction be