Be the best that you can be.

In many points of my life, I found myself doing something which many of us often do; wallowing in self-pity. Thinking of the worse scenarios that could possibly happen, I sank into an endless pit of negative emotions. Once again, it happened today. This evening, I was approached by a man with tattoos all over his arms. Caught by surprise, I did not utter a single word. The man introduced himself as a ex-convict who has gone in and out of prison for more than 5 times. "My wife passed away, leaving me the burden of two young kids. Please support me by buying this keychain..", with these heart-wrenching words, he showed me a copy of his wife's death certificate. Upon seeing the death certificate, an ineffable feeling surged through me. I immediately got reminded of the time when I had to bring my grandmother's death certificate back to school. I can still vividly remember that experience to be terribly hurting. To be able to show everyone his loved one's death cert

I am now enjoying my job at Converse ( Jurong Point ), so come down and visit me! Always having this ineffable pensive emotion going on. I will be going over to China from the 3 December to the 11 December. I will be uploading photos that I have taken on my Facebook, so keep a look-out!

Dear readers, this is just going to be a random post. I've not been posting for quite time now... After watching "You Are The Apple Of My Eye", a myriad of thoughts filled my mind. That ineffable feeling that stays after watching it... It was totally wow. As my astrology described me, I am rather an introvert although I may seem like someone who is always out-going and cheerful. Hiding all my true feelings inside my heart, all I did was to hide everything in myself; Suffering in silence. Every single night, I asked myself," What if?". What if we were together back then. What if I did not give up. Would things be the same? Sometimes when we like someone, we do many stupid things just to see that smile on their faces, or even receive a smiley face back in their text messages.Yeah,that's pretty dumb. I still keep our msn conversation on my phone. Don't i sound just like a stalker? Fuck, my English is de-proving.. Anyway life still goes on with or without yo

Tonight, as I sat on the cold-concrete floor under my block, warming down, I thought about everything. That inexplicable feeling that continues to surge through my soul and drags me around in circles. I'm feeling vexed and knots are all entangled inside me. I need something- time. With "time", I would replay things and do things that would change my entire destiny. No matter how much we hated how things were, "time" does not wait or turn back. We may not change the past and we can never foresee the further. All we have is the "present". The "present" will soon become the "past". No matter how shitty the "present" may seem, we just have to make do with what we have and make the best out of it. To conclude, what we do have now is the most important. Do not fret about what has passed and what may be coming towards us. Instead, we should focus on what we have now and do things to the best of our capability. This way, ou

They always say that one must be selfish in order to become successful. I can't bring myself to do that.

I never get it. As I receive my English results today, I was appalled. Questions filled my mind. Why did I get such a low grade? I merely passed my paper one. Although there was slight improvement in my paper two, paper pulled me down completed and I got only 56.7% for the entire English marks. I was confused. It was a morale to think that my English grade would go up simply by improving my grammar. That was a total mistake. Everybody is getting really stress during this period of time. There are only twenty-two days. Time has flew by so quickly. That quick that I could not keep up. The next twenty-two days is what I have got to pull up my grades to what I really wanted for myself. That twenty-two days is all that I have left, yet I still have so many subjects that I need to pull their grades up. English, Maths, Chemistry, Geography, Social Studies, Design and Technology... Basically everything. The pressing issue now is to have 5 sets of maths paper completely done finished by the e

Finally the preliminaries are over. I have been lucubrate industrious for quite some time and I do not have ample sleep. Today, as I was attending tuition, I could not help but to doze off. It was really very disturbing. How nice would it be if we were are all super humans, or rather robots and we would not have to sleep. That way, we would be able to do so much more things. I can still vividly remember a sticky note that was given to me by my sister, it wrote," How can you feel tired? Successful people wake up every morning, wishing that they do not need to sleep. They want to do so much more thing." That has been what I kept reminding myself of recently whenever I feel tired. Counting down, there are only 24 days left to the O Levels science practical exam which will mark the start of the exam and there are only 29 days left to the O Level English Papers. I really want give in my best shot for this examination. This would be everything I got. I will do my best! Yes! Anyw

I hope it's the latter. Whatever it is, i will become the best.

1. Deleted my Facebook and twitter application and I can no longer have access to it on my phone. This way i would remain focus till my o levels have finish. 2. Limit myself to train badminton only at most 2 times a week. 3. Off my phone/ Put my phone aside when I am studying. That's all. I will do my best for the remaining 29 days.

I feel horrible about my studies, badminton and myself. That's all.

A myriad of thoughts flooded my mind. "Is it really that DIFFICULT to get over somebody?" That, I DO NOT agree. I got over my ex-girlfriend within a short period of time and it was easy. Sometimes I ask myself if I really did once loved her before or not. I got her as easy as Abcs as soon as I found out that she was still not over her ex-boyfriend. It was really such an irony that she claimed she loved me so much and yet she simply tweets all about her ex-boyfriend back in Malaysia after she found out that I've gotten over her. Some people are just that fake. Well, I don't blame her for that. Moreover, she is still really very young and naive. I was merely a substitute, but who cares I really did experienced love when I was with her. It was a novel experience and for that, I thank her for those beautiful memories. Sometimes, it really doesn't matter much. When two people don't end up together, we don't have to feel bad about the relationship just b

I just reached home from badminton training. Lying on my bed, I realized that It has been quite some time since I really lay down on my bed and honestly, this doesn't feel like my bed at all! I have been staying out these few days and studying industriously. It's really an irony that I could feel so weird in a bed that I have been lying onto for the past seventeen years of my life, yet feel normal lying on some other place which I only lay for a short period of time. It is only now then I realize how important home is. The home is the place where we seek solace in times of adversity and not having the fear of being judged. Oh well. I missed home. It is just about a month to my O level examination and I'm getting really stressed. My health is deteriorating too. What else can I do? Anyway it's just for this one month. That's what I keep reminding myself. Tomorrow will be another long day of studying again. I guess I'm only left with 6 hours of sleep again! Lesso

Just a short post to say that I've been studying till now! =) I'm going to sleep soon. These few days have been so tiring and I rested so little. I think I must really sleep so much after my o levels or maybe just before my exams!

Things have been pretty messed up. Well, I don't really know how to put them into words. Anyway, it's pretty cool that blogger finally develop this application that enables me to blog from my iPhone; which is something cool and long-awaited.=) Today was my preliminary examinations. Maths was relatively easy. How should I put it? I guess I could pull off a eighty five percentile. I did not bring my protractor and lost four marks. Not prepared enough.. Oh yeah, my sister was kind enough to open up a abode for me. She said it would be available till my O levels. That was really sweet of her. That place has an uncanny resemblance to my grandmother's place; even the floor tiles! It makes me feel comfortable. Compared to me being alone, there would be "eyes" staring at me and making sure that I complete my work and remain task-orientated. Sometimes I really wonder what have I done to deserve such great people in life. I've met many great people who helped me a lo

忘记一个人真的有那么难吗？当我在努力忘记你的时候，我门的回忆一直在我脑海中飘浮。说我不爱了是一个谎言。因为，我从来根本没有不爱过。要你会来是不可能的，因为你已无法知道该如何面对我。事情也到达到一个不能说对不起来解决问题了。我想，我还是学你一样，学会放下了爱，继续生活。

Who have thought that someone who is always so hyper and talkative in class will actually be such a quiet person whenever he is all alone? He, who can never take any sensitive remarks from others, will get affected at the slightest matter. I really can take it no more. The pain that torment me every night, I have not an inkling of where does it comes from. All I know is that it is there and it hurts. I’m not that strong. I’m merely putting on a façade every time I go out- and I get better and better at it till it becomes so natural that nobody can really tell when I’m alright or I’m not. I often do reflections and reviews on my day and on my life. They would usually be very depressing in the beginning, but there will always be a consolation type of ending. Today, I am not going to do that. I’m just follow just with the flow. Initially I have no idea how am I going to start off this review; however, I manage to get it started. This is life- it is always hard to take the first few s

It has been a rather long time since I last did a review. Recently, I have been bogged down by so many things. It feels like there is not enough time for me to do anything at all. My days are only filled with studying. There is hardly any time left for trivial matters such as sports. Looking back, it had been so long since I last ran or played badminton. Every now and then, I will receive text messages from my coach, informing me of when and where the trainings will be held. Upon receiving those messages I asked myself why I am pushing myself so much. Why am I treating myself so harshly? Deep inside, I really want to go out there and train with my fellow mates, but I have been tied down. I am tied down by the responsibility- The responsibility of completing my work to the best of my capabilities. There are many times when I really feel like giving it all up. I remember yesterday, I showed my completed product to my subject teacher with pride. I was so sure that I had done a great

16 June 2011. Nostalgia and Memories. Today, I unexpectedly chanced upon a few of my old photo albums. Inside were many photos of my childhood, taken when I was still very young. While browsing through the album, nostalgia surged through me. I felt a feeling of nostalgia surge through me. I started thinking of my past. I started to think of the people who were in my life. One of whom is my grandmother, who is a prominent figure in my life. My grandmother is probably one of the fiercest looking grandmothers that you can find. With her loud and vibrant voice, she would always be nagging at me incessantly. I found it very irritating sometimes. However, she would have the most caring attitude towards her grandchildren. Ever since I was born into this world, my grandmother would take care of me when my parents were busy with their work. She would always be there for me, feeding me with powdered milk, singing a lullaby for me to sleep to, and taught me how to start speaking. Basically, my gr

It've been so long since I've last posted! Well, It's going to be 'alive again'. I'm going to start posting more often. Stay tune! I just watched a movie titled “Hello Ghost”. It is a Korean movie that has yet to be screened in Singapore, yet I am not really sure why I can find a link to it online. The movie tells the tale of a man who initially wanted to kill himself, but for some reason apparently could not die. After numerous suicidal attempts, he found out that he was able to see ghosts with his naked eye. What’s more disturbing is that, he is also haunted by five restless spirits. A middle-aged businessman who smoke, a lady who cries non-stop, an old man who loves ogling at young ladies and an adorable young boy. Each of them had wishes that they would like to realize, and planned to use the man’s body to act out and fulfill those wishes. The entire plot generally resolves around the fulfilling of these wishes. However, the man later experienced friction be