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I can not.

They always say that one must be selfish in order to become successful. I can't bring myself to do that.

Myriad of Thoughts.

I never get it. As I receive my English results today, I was appalled. Questions filled my mind. Why did I get such a low grade? I merely passed my paper one. Although there was slight improvement in my paper two, paper pulled me down completed and I got only 56.7% for the entire English marks. I was confused. It was a morale to think that my English grade would go up simply by improving my grammar. That was a total mistake. Everybody is getting really stress during this period of time. There are only twenty-two days. Time has flew by so quickly. That quick that I could not keep up. The next twenty-two days is what I have got to pull up my grades to what I really wanted for myself. That twenty-two days is all that I have left, yet I still have so many subjects that I need to pull their grades up. English, Maths, Chemistry, Geography, Social Studies, Design and Technology... Basically everything. The pressing issue now is to have 5 sets of maths paper completely done finished by the e

It has never felt like this before.

If only we were all robots and did not have to sleep.

Finally the preliminaries are over. I have been lucubrate industrious for quite some time and I do not have ample sleep. Today, as I was attending tuition, I could not help but to doze off. It was really very disturbing. How nice would it be if we were are all super humans, or rather robots and we would not have to sleep. That way, we would be able to do so much more things. I can still vividly remember a sticky note that was given to me by my sister, it wrote," How can you feel tired? Successful people wake up every morning, wishing that they do not need to sleep. They want to do so much more thing." That has been what I kept reminding myself of recently whenever I feel tired. Counting down, there are only 24 days left to the O Levels science practical exam which will mark the start of the exam and there are only 29 days left to the O Level English Papers. I really want give in my best shot for this examination. This would be everything I got. I will do my best! Yes! Anyw

Obligation Vs Genuine Care.

I hope it's the latter. Whatever it is, i will become the best.

Removing all distractions.

1. Deleted my Facebook and twitter application and I can no longer have access to it on my phone. This way i would remain focus till my o levels have finish. 2. Limit myself to train badminton only at most 2 times a week. 3. Off my phone/ Put my phone aside when I am studying. That's all. I will do my best for the remaining 29 days.

20 September 2011

I feel horrible about my studies, badminton and myself. That's all.

19 September 2011 < Getting Over A Past Love.>

A myriad of thoughts flooded my mind. "Is it really that DIFFICULT to get over somebody?" That, I DO NOT agree. I got over my ex-girlfriend within a short period of time and it was easy. Sometimes I ask myself if I really did once loved her before or not. I got her as easy as Abcs as soon as I found out that she was still not over her ex-boyfriend. It was really such an irony that she claimed she loved me so much and yet she simply tweets all about her ex-boyfriend back in Malaysia after she found out that I've gotten over her. Some people are just that fake. Well, I don't blame her for that. Moreover, she is still really very young and naive. I was merely a substitute, but who cares I really did experienced love when I was with her. It was a novel experience and for that, I thank her for those beautiful memories. Sometimes, it really doesn't matter much. When two people don't end up together, we don't have to feel bad about the relationship just b

18 September 2011.

I just reached home from badminton training. Lying on my bed, I realized that It has been quite some time since I really lay down on my bed and honestly, this doesn't feel like my bed at all! I have been staying out these few days and studying industriously. It's really an irony that I could feel so weird in a bed that I have been lying onto for the past seventeen years of my life, yet feel normal lying on some other place which I only lay for a short period of time. It is only now then I realize how important home is. The home is the place where we seek solace in times of adversity and not having the fear of being judged. Oh well. I missed home. It is just about a month to my O level examination and I'm getting really stressed. My health is deteriorating too. What else can I do? Anyway it's just for this one month. That's what I keep reminding myself. Tomorrow will be another long day of studying again. I guess I'm only left with 6 hours of sleep again! Lesso

17 September 2011

Just a short post to say that I've been studying till now! =) I'm going to sleep soon. These few days have been so tiring and I rested so little. I think I must really sleep so much after my o levels or maybe just before my exams!

Confused. Slightly happy yet unhappy.

Things have been pretty messed up. Well, I don't really know how to put them into words. Anyway, it's pretty cool that blogger finally develop this application that enables me to blog from my iPhone; which is something cool and long-awaited.=) Today was my preliminary examinations. Maths was relatively easy. How should I put it? I guess I could pull off a eighty five percentile. I did not bring my protractor and lost four marks. Not prepared enough.. Oh yeah, my sister was kind enough to open up a abode for me. She said it would be available till my O levels. That was really sweet of her. That place has an uncanny resemblance to my grandmother's place; even the floor tiles! It makes me feel comfortable. Compared to me being alone, there would be "eyes" staring at me and making sure that I complete my work and remain task-orientated. Sometimes I really wonder what have I done to deserve such great people in life. I've met many great people who helped me a lo